Why Denial Doesn’t Work

I’ve been in denial about exactly what size I really am for a while now.  I think Old Navy helps that denial because I don’t think their sizes are right so I can believe I’m a smaller size.  I ordered the stuff for the boudoir shoot and I got the skirt today only to find it out doesn’t even come CLOSE to fitting.  It’s a size 44.  I measured myself and ooops, I’m more of a size 48 around my hips.  Argh.  I think I might just return this, I should do this type of shopping online, it’s too bad because you have so many more options this way